I Fail

Lately, since I haven't been able to sit in front if a computer in over a month, I h e been failing at blogging. I even got this new app (when I don't even use apps mostly) on my phone just so I could blog easily. Yeah, still doesn't help much.

It ha been very cold lately and my room is in the back of the house and gets no circulation. Therefore it is always 40 degrees in my room. Ok so maybe not 40 degrees but probably 50. Cold enough that if you stand in there for two minutes or more, you will start shivering. Since the. computer is in the freezing room, I haven't really wanted to numb my buttcheeks just to sit on the computer.

But I miss blogging. I always think "oh I should blog about this" or I have an idea and instantly think "oh I so need to make a blog on this" but so far I haven't really gotten around to it. I'm hoping this app deal will help. We shall see

Later maybe..

Days of Christmas two

So lets do a quick DIY shall we? I love the smell of cinnamon in the winter, especially for the holidays, so I already have candles everywhere and scented pine cones in every corner and in my tree. Still it's not enough for me. A lovely way before people come over, or just a nice night sitting with hot chocolate looking at he lights is to throw some cinnamon in the fireplace.

We have a wood stove and very do often I take a cinnamon stick and wrap it tight in newspaper and put it in a corner of the stove so it burns slowly and smells heavenly. It is also nice if you wrap a couple piece of eucalyptus in with the cinnamon, so you smell the cinnamon but you also have a nice relief of clearing your sinuses in then cold winter. We have a cast iron kettle we keep on top of the stove with water that evaporates after a while of the stove burning that I like to put eucalyptus in too, so the aroma and vapors of the eucalyptus last longer than just burning it. Either way it's lovely to have along with the delicious smell of a cinnamon fire in the winter

Day one - 25 days of Christmas

Lets start with the new things, first, I finally got a phone that works! It's my first iPhone and so far it is so much better than trying to use old phones that had a thousand things wrong with them.

Next is my new kitty! Meet Gandalf the Grey, or just Grey for short. We found him at 630am one morning laying on our front porch in front of the door trying I huddle and be warm. He's been here a couple weeks now and he has grown soo much. He's hardly a year I'm guessing because of how he's still growing and how playful he still is and he still had itty bitty kitten teeth. He's the newest addition to our family and its silly how much I loved this kitty after only a day. I love that I took him in rather than going out and buying a cat, it's such a humbler thing to rescue your pets.

25 days of Christmas

Each day (or days if I get backed up) I'm going to post something about my Christmas or December. Sometimes it might just be a regular post or it may be a DIY post or it may just be an idea of something I'd like to do this December. But nonetheless, it is December and it is my favorite holiday month and I'm going to make the very best of it I can, giving my certain circumstances.

meh, short blog

So here we are again, it's finally the Christmas season... well actually it's kind of been the Christmas season for me since the day after Halloween, but anyway, now the rest of everywhere is in the Christmas spirit too. I finally have my last tree up and decorated (yes that's right, last tree. I have five.) This is my first Christmas in my own house with my daughter and so far... it's pretty difficult. Actually it's almost depressing. I found out that this year I won't be able to give my daughter the Christmas I wish I could. I actually have had to try to get her gifts through charity. This is my favourite time of year, and I'm so used being able to give to charities and do things for charities, and now I can't. Now I can't afford to give to charities because I can't even afford to give things to my daughter. Of course I have a wonderful family who are helping out and are offering to get all the things I wish I could give my daughter, but still. I just wish I was capable of doing it on my own. She will have a wonderful Christmas either way, I just can't wait until the day that we all are stable enough to do things like Christmas.

Anyway, I've been very very busy lately. If I'm not busy making ornaments (which I want to post a blog on each one I've made because I'm sooo proud of myself!) I've been baking for Thanksgiving, or just in general busy. It's hard to find a good routine around this time of year.

I also need a good detoxing. after all the thanksgiving food I really just want a giant bowl of brown rice and spinach.

Well this is a short blog because now I have to go rescue my tree from the running toddler

~peace!~

The Day After Halloween

Hello world.
I've been MIA for a while, from not just my internet addiction but from a lot. I need to get out of the mental slump I'm falling back into, although everything just seems to keep going downhill.
 It all started a couple weeks ago when the shared car...crashed. Thankfully no one was hurt, besides the car. And then we didn't have a car to use. And just another thing to add to our expensive now. Because of this reason, I didn't get to do many things with my daughter this October, and didn't get to really have that fall fun that I really was looking forward to doing with her this year. No pumpkin patch, no corn mazes, no Halloween stores, no Halloween crafting.
There has also been drama and related things that have to do with who is and isn't really my friend anymore. But as of this moment, I really don't know who still is a "friend." I also smashed my phone. Completely shattered it. So now I have to use an old phone with a screen that kind of works less than half the time, but will not make or answer calls. Which is pretty much useless except to fill the empty physical void of not having a phone in my pocket.
Money is so tight lately that I'm having trouble just thinking about going to the grocery store. Money is stretched so tightly that I eat ramen for meals more than a college student. The rent is just beyond all of our combined capabilities. I've had to put my shop on hold because I can't find the time to continue making an inventory because I'm too busy stressing about everything else.
Hurricane Sandy also decided to make a mess of things. I don't have actual heat in my house besides a small wood stove and lots, and lots of space heaters. So now it's about 20 degrees less than what I have been prepared for in less than a week. I also couldn't finish my daughters Halloween costume. So at the last minute I had to pull together a costume, which actually didn't turn out too bad.

Just some thick black leggings, a black sock stuffed with fluff for a tail, ears made of felt and hot glued to a headband, a tutu, and a plain black shirt. Of course you can't forget the nose and whiskers!

I thought she was just adorable.

But now it is the very beginning of November.It's sweaters and boots weather. It's the beginning stages of getting ready for Christmas. A couple more weeks and I can decorate this house all up for the first time for Christmas. I am absolutely Christmas crazy. It's my absolute favorite time of year and I wish it could last much longer.
I have a huge list I want to get for my daughter for gifts this year but with money, well, we'll see how this works.

But let the Holiday Season commence!

-peace!

Low

You know those times where you think things couldn't possibly get worse..and then they always do? Yeah. I've officially hit the low of lows of the lowest I've ever been. I can't really get into detail without fear of someone calling me a horrible mom and not being able to take care of my daughter or gosh knows what. Point blank right now is that We're poor.

I haven't blogged in a while because I just haven't had anything to say besides just about how much worse things are getting. Everything is such a struggle now more than ever. I have these worries that I don't want to have to worry about. Things that most other people take for granted on a daily basis. Things that most people wouldn't even think could be worrisome.