meh, short blog

So here we are again, it's finally the Christmas season... well actually it's kind of been the Christmas season for me since the day after Halloween, but anyway, now the rest of everywhere is in the Christmas spirit too. I finally have my last tree up and decorated (yes that's right, last tree. I have five.) This is my first Christmas in my own house with my daughter and so far... it's pretty difficult. Actually it's almost depressing. I found out that this year I won't be able to give my daughter the Christmas I wish I could. I actually have had to try to get her gifts through charity. This is my favourite time of year, and I'm so used being able to give to charities and do things for charities, and now I can't. Now I can't afford to give to charities because I can't even afford to give things to my daughter. Of course I have a wonderful family who are helping out and are offering to get all the things I wish I could give my daughter, but still. I just wish I was capable of doing it on my own. She will have a wonderful Christmas either way, I just can't wait until the day that we all are stable enough to do things like Christmas.

Anyway, I've been very very busy lately. If I'm not busy making ornaments (which I want to post a blog on each one I've made because I'm sooo proud of myself!) I've been baking for Thanksgiving, or just in general busy. It's hard to find a good routine around this time of year.

I also need a good detoxing. after all the thanksgiving food I really just want a giant bowl of brown rice and spinach.

Well this is a short blog because now I have to go rescue my tree from the running toddler

~peace!~

The Day After Halloween

Hello world.
I've been MIA for a while, from not just my internet addiction but from a lot. I need to get out of the mental slump I'm falling back into, although everything just seems to keep going downhill.
 It all started a couple weeks ago when the shared car...crashed. Thankfully no one was hurt, besides the car. And then we didn't have a car to use. And just another thing to add to our expensive now. Because of this reason, I didn't get to do many things with my daughter this October, and didn't get to really have that fall fun that I really was looking forward to doing with her this year. No pumpkin patch, no corn mazes, no Halloween stores, no Halloween crafting.
There has also been drama and related things that have to do with who is and isn't really my friend anymore. But as of this moment, I really don't know who still is a "friend." I also smashed my phone. Completely shattered it. So now I have to use an old phone with a screen that kind of works less than half the time, but will not make or answer calls. Which is pretty much useless except to fill the empty physical void of not having a phone in my pocket.
Money is so tight lately that I'm having trouble just thinking about going to the grocery store. Money is stretched so tightly that I eat ramen for meals more than a college student. The rent is just beyond all of our combined capabilities. I've had to put my shop on hold because I can't find the time to continue making an inventory because I'm too busy stressing about everything else.
Hurricane Sandy also decided to make a mess of things. I don't have actual heat in my house besides a small wood stove and lots, and lots of space heaters. So now it's about 20 degrees less than what I have been prepared for in less than a week. I also couldn't finish my daughters Halloween costume. So at the last minute I had to pull together a costume, which actually didn't turn out too bad.

Just some thick black leggings, a black sock stuffed with fluff for a tail, ears made of felt and hot glued to a headband, a tutu, and a plain black shirt. Of course you can't forget the nose and whiskers!

I thought she was just adorable.

But now it is the very beginning of November.It's sweaters and boots weather. It's the beginning stages of getting ready for Christmas. A couple more weeks and I can decorate this house all up for the first time for Christmas. I am absolutely Christmas crazy. It's my absolute favorite time of year and I wish it could last much longer.
I have a huge list I want to get for my daughter for gifts this year but with money, well, we'll see how this works.

But let the Holiday Season commence!

-peace!